Entry #07: How to not get upset, PT1

Date: 5/1/2019
Time: 9:40pm
Location: Home

Public transport. Lower convenience. Personal security and carrying less stuff.

This is where I’m starting to make a change in life towards a life away from convenience. It’s about 30 days before departure and 30 days before a whole new lifestyle.

But consequently, it all happened after crashing my car.

Earlier this morning I got in a to car accident, and this was my first major car accident. The whole procedure was quite new to me. But it’s exactly how everyone says it goes, everything just flashes before your eyes.

Okay, not really. It was more like reliving the same 10 seconds of messing up. I was the cause of the accident, a simple mistake at that. Look away for one second out the window, and next thing there’s a grey Toyota Tacoma and your hood curling up right towards your face.

Accidents are bound to happen, but that doesn’t excuse my reactions or lack thereof.

This is an opportunity to just let go of what I’ve gotten do used to. Driving around going wherever I please. Seeing friends, going to parties and whatever. Well, I still have friends that have cars so they can pick me up too, I guess haha.

Crashing isn’t the end of the world, and I’m glad I can say that I have this life that I have, of which my boss, parents, tow-truck driver and police made things that much easier.

I’m thankful that I did not get hurt and came out physically unscathed. But moving forward, I’m going to make do with what I can. TheBus (that’s actually the name of our bus system) isn’t so terrible and it’s nostalgic in a way of my grade school days.

This is all the rational “Josh” the actual adult in my mind. And then there’s the inner child.

I was frustrated at myself and angry that I couldn’t simply straight for the duration of my drive. All I was focused on was driving towards my destination because I really wanted a chocolate muffin, the ones I usually get at this one shop near my university. So many simple mistakes, and in retrospect, I have made many more mistakes that have had little to no consequence.

It is 100% frustrating to have the one, little, slip-up be the ruin of your day, when on any other given day, you would see countless other people driving half-asleep and swerving around the road. You don’t pay attention to things when it’s too late, and we’re all happily aware of that.

But getting upset never let anyone learn.

I’m forward-looking, I know where the mistakes were made and I know that I can’t do anything to repair them to a status that once was. But, what I can ALWAYS do to is try to see what things I can do to reprimand my actions, prevent them in the future, and take some time to review what I have been doing in order to make a better move.

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